Could it be you?

On the 23rd of October, we first knew of you. We heard your name, your age and a little bit of your story. Would we be interested in hearing more about you? Yes! The week went by, we could barely contain our excitement - we were going to see a picture of you during our next session!

On the 30th of October, we saw you for the first time. Three little black and white photos of you, one from when you were 9 months old, two when you were 14 months old. We couldn't stop looking at you. We looked and looked. I stayed up late and traced the line of your little face, your little arms. We both felt a big, fat YES in our hearts and guts. We learned more about you, about your birth family, about your story. To make sure, we were asked to think about it for a few days before giving the official "yes." Only a day and a half later we couldn't wait any longer and gave it. Then, more waiting. Everyone had to be consulted to see if we could move forward. That week was hard, so hard. My heart was pulled in every direction: excited and happy, scared to death, disappointment at being reminded of everything that still has to happen if you are to be ours, grief at the thought that it won't be you. For two days I couldn't stop the tears from flowing.

On the 6th of November, we saw a photo of you, taken just a few days ago on Halloween. You are enchanting, sitting there in your little cat outfit. Again, we couldn't stop looking at you - our hearts are screaming YES even louder as the seconds go by.

There is another couple being reviewed to be matched with you, we don't know yet what will happen. But we will meet your social worker and a second-opinion social worker on Monday the 13th, because our family-finder social worker is yours too, and both have to say yes in order for us to move forward with you. I hope with all my heart it is you. I've already imagined you in our arms, in our home and I don't have to imagine you in our hearts, because you already are little one.

And you are also in our friends and family's hearts. They have all seen your photo and know that you may become our daughter, their niece, grand-daughter, cousin, friend. They are all hoping that it be you, lighting candles so that it be you, sending all their thoughts and positive vibes so that it's you.

If it's not you, it's because you were meant to be in another family, but you will always, always be special to us.

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